An unsettled settlement

Many unanswered questions...
Many awaited replies;
A meek effort to resolve them...
But the cyclone of thoughts never dies.
Doubts on your potential...
On everything you ever count;
Where are you heading this life...
Another existential crisis taking a bout.
Why this thing went this way...
Why are your ambitious so cold;
Why are you not that you planned for...
Why your dreams are at hold.
Half woken half asleep...
Not understanding what is for real;
Defending ten times, blaming eleven...
Some silent whispers some loudest squeal.
Deciding whether to look at some mornings...
Whose monotony frightens me;
Or some unforgettable evenings...
Whose lessons enlightens me.
To all the things I wished and have...
And to all the numerous falls;
This internal conflict is never going to be settled...
So I choose you all.